Nobody said it was easy...

This past few weeks have been raging with emotion, stress, confusion, and any other gripping emotion you could possibly associate with whirlwind living. Tom came back into my life like a bull in a china shop, only to deny intention, when all I want is to forget. But tearing through the china shop, he torn open the delicate scar tissue that blockades those memories...those agonizing, all consuming, heart shattering memories that only bring pain so unbearable there are no words to describe it. Pain that races through my body faster than I can blink, that makes me tingling numb and double over in pain all at the same time. A friend also ended a relationship this week, not by her choice, that hit so close to my heart. Then watching Glee, the flood gates reopened following my heart's pain creeping to the surface. no one ever said it would be so hard...four years later...