Current mood:
breezy
Change is in the air. Its subtle but sweet, quiet & calculating. I have no doubt in my mind things will be ok. Im making a list, checking it twice, & "washing my hair" everyday. I'll post the list soon enough and I wont stray or lower my standards. I know who I am & what I want now. It was sudden & unexpected but its clear to me now.
ok so Im writing again b/c I need to say this. I dont think I deserve to succeed or get the man of my dreams so its hard for me to say the things I want b/c why should I get them right? I need to keep reminding myself that I do deserve it.
The pieces of my life will come together. I will pay off my debt, I will go back to school, I will be the rider I want to become. I will not be alone in my life.
He will be tall and handsome
intelligent, funny, and compassionate
has an education and drive
easy to talk to & to get along with
knows what he wants in his life and is ok if it means hes not rich as long as he loves what hes doing
financially stable and responsible
he will be able to argue with me and not back down just because
he will respect family & the importance of it
he will be protective and loving, maybe even a little jealous at times
he wont be afraid to take my hand in public
he will hold the door for me & ask me how my day was
and he will think I am the most beautiful girl in the whole world & love me & my quirks, my goofiness, my trust issues, my bleeding heart, my loud laugh, my scars...and all those things that make me who I am
oh yes, he will understand that I dont share dessert ;)
Current mood:
blessed
To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.
To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best
and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of
others as I am about my own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and presson to the
greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile
to every living creature I meet.
To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to critize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world,
not in loud word, but in great deeds.
To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.
~Christian D. Larson, from "The Secret"
Current mood:
apathetic
I closed our book today
with a force I cannot describe
a might that was unfathomable
and more tears then I knew could survive.
I tried to lock the pages
and throw away the key;
covered in rust and insubstantial
it crumbled at my feet.
You may fool the world
with your convoluted smile,
never again will I fall for the mist
that blinded my callow blue eyes.
Current mood:
ashamed
